same stupid issue.

i didn't attend class today. i'm not sick. but i feel i am. pakiramdam ko, i'm being forced into doing something i do not want to do.

same issue. same stupid issue.

the thing is, gusto ko naman talaga yung ginagawa ko. wala lang talaga akong pasensya sa paulit-ulit na activity everyday, every hour, every minute. but that IS Law School, isn't it? bakit ko pa'to pinasok kung di naman kayang panindigan?

i keep thinking of that too. daming excuses. daming strategy.

i always try to look for inspiration through browsing the worldwideweb about a nice poem or quote man lang to motivate me. i've been arranging and rearranging my small space just to set my mood and start anew everytime i get a very low energy.

but now, as i write this, i realized, sino'ng niloloko ko?? inspiration is not external. it must come from within... it's just that i feel something is lacking... something doesn't feel right. may missing link na hindi ko man lang maisip kung ano.