hard-work.

prior to this post, i wrote [in my other blog] about my own musing about the “big” world. who would have thought i’d be back in iligan not long after that?! well, perhaps people had expected i’d be back soon. that i can’t hang on to my decision.

yun na nga ata ang nangyari. well, what can i say? corny talaga ang adult world. making decisions and choices is not really easy. sabi pa ni Star sa comment nya kay jade, “lisod mag-decide kung naa na’y buot… coz you know there’ll be consequences.”

now, i’m doing exactly what i used to despise. a life full of routine. no spontaneity. bawat kilos de-numero. not seizing the day. living like a robot. cold-hearted. empty. LAW SCHOOL.

but i’ve always believed in having choices. and i chose to follow this path. i chose to abandon those carefree days when i used to just chill out with friends after work. when work means work. when salary means a scant salary but a very jolly holiday with weekend strolling around the mall. when a friend means a friend. money just money. and a smile just a simple smile. when love was so sweet and no prying eyes stare at me. NO BIGGIES AT ALL.

hmmm… here goes this feeling of nostalgia again.

people nowadays are so complicated. friendship wasn’t how it used to be. everyone seems too demanding. people doesn’t act true to one’s face. it’s like they always put on painted smiles even if it’s contrary to what they feel… they want to share heartaches but they don’t fearing na baka makornihan ka. you can’t even give a gift without reason. you always have to explain yourself. before, friendship was as easy as tossing cornicks in the air and catching it with one’s mouth. pero ngayon? it’s like you’ve gotta work hard for it. work really, really hard.

hmmm… what’s up with Law School and the adult world??

i think i’m becoming more and more of a monster.